Tears. . .
Apr. 1st, 2011 04:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
citraryoTears. . .
I dont know why but i think i cried a lot on March. In that month i had many things that happened to me. My birthday, my sadness because of my father, missing my best friend so much, exhausted over my job, sick for almost a month, fight with my brother, my frustration over my study, ranaway from home, lost money and all.
I am so sad but i can't express it. My best friend, the only one who always there for me isn't like that anymore. I feel she is so faraway. She has her new world that i can't reach. She has friends that are so important than me. I dont want to hate her because of that. She was there for me for years. So how can i be so greedy and egoist to always ask her to be beside me? I dont want to burden her with my constant problems. I dont want to trouble her. And when i realized it, she is no longer here. I rarely meet her. She studies in different city. That's why when she comes back, we spend our time in happiness. I dont wanna make her worry at me, so i always pretending i'm okay. i love her so much. . .
Then i am so grateful to know LJ. This is the place when i meet a lot of friends who care about me though we never meet. I always cry and feel so touching when you all give me hugs and support when i am so down. Thank you very much. Thank you *hugs*
minna, i have written a lot of fic for almost a year. I am so happy if my fic can make you smile. It's the only way that can i do to make you happy. Hope you will happy always.
It's so sad that i think i lost a lot of friends that read my fic. I know it would happen because we have our own problem and RL that sometimes are so hard. I hope you all be healthy and fine, ne *hugs*
honestly i am sad when i see much readers left me. They're still there but i think they don't like my fic again. I can't do anything about it. We all have the right to do anything that we like, ne. And i am so sorry minna that i feel down for writing. My latest update of hidden love is the hardest chap for me to write couz i wrote it in tears. .
I dont know why but i think i cried a lot on March. In that month i had many things that happened to me. My birthday, my sadness because of my father, missing my best friend so much, exhausted over my job, sick for almost a month, fight with my brother, my frustration over my study, ranaway from home, lost money and all.
I am so sad but i can't express it. My best friend, the only one who always there for me isn't like that anymore. I feel she is so faraway. She has her new world that i can't reach. She has friends that are so important than me. I dont want to hate her because of that. She was there for me for years. So how can i be so greedy and egoist to always ask her to be beside me? I dont want to burden her with my constant problems. I dont want to trouble her. And when i realized it, she is no longer here. I rarely meet her. She studies in different city. That's why when she comes back, we spend our time in happiness. I dont wanna make her worry at me, so i always pretending i'm okay. i love her so much. . .
Then i am so grateful to know LJ. This is the place when i meet a lot of friends who care about me though we never meet. I always cry and feel so touching when you all give me hugs and support when i am so down. Thank you very much. Thank you *hugs*
minna, i have written a lot of fic for almost a year. I am so happy if my fic can make you smile. It's the only way that can i do to make you happy. Hope you will happy always.
It's so sad that i think i lost a lot of friends that read my fic. I know it would happen because we have our own problem and RL that sometimes are so hard. I hope you all be healthy and fine, ne *hugs*
honestly i am sad when i see much readers left me. They're still there but i think they don't like my fic again. I can't do anything about it. We all have the right to do anything that we like, ne. And i am so sorry minna that i feel down for writing. My latest update of hidden love is the hardest chap for me to write couz i wrote it in tears. .
