Tears. . .
Apr. 1st, 2011 04:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
citraryoTears. . .
I dont know why but i think i cried a lot on March. In that month i had many things that happened to me. My birthday, my sadness because of my father, missing my best friend so much, exhausted over my job, sick for almost a month, fight with my brother, my frustration over my study, ranaway from home, lost money and all.
I am so sad but i can't express it. My best friend, the only one who always there for me isn't like that anymore. I feel she is so faraway. She has her new world that i can't reach. She has friends that are so important than me. I dont want to hate her because of that. She was there for me for years. So how can i be so greedy and egoist to always ask her to be beside me? I dont want to burden her with my constant problems. I dont want to trouble her. And when i realized it, she is no longer here. I rarely meet her. She studies in different city. That's why when she comes back, we spend our time in happiness. I dont wanna make her worry at me, so i always pretending i'm okay. i love her so much. . .
Then i am so grateful to know LJ. This is the place when i meet a lot of friends who care about me though we never meet. I always cry and feel so touching when you all give me hugs and support when i am so down. Thank you very much. Thank you *hugs*
minna, i have written a lot of fic for almost a year. I am so happy if my fic can make you smile. It's the only way that can i do to make you happy. Hope you will happy always.
It's so sad that i think i lost a lot of friends that read my fic. I know it would happen because we have our own problem and RL that sometimes are so hard. I hope you all be healthy and fine, ne *hugs*
honestly i am sad when i see much readers left me. They're still there but i think they don't like my fic again. I can't do anything about it. We all have the right to do anything that we like, ne. And i am so sorry minna that i feel down for writing. My latest update of hidden love is the hardest chap for me to write couz i wrote it in tears. .
I dont know why but i think i cried a lot on March. In that month i had many things that happened to me. My birthday, my sadness because of my father, missing my best friend so much, exhausted over my job, sick for almost a month, fight with my brother, my frustration over my study, ranaway from home, lost money and all.
I am so sad but i can't express it. My best friend, the only one who always there for me isn't like that anymore. I feel she is so faraway. She has her new world that i can't reach. She has friends that are so important than me. I dont want to hate her because of that. She was there for me for years. So how can i be so greedy and egoist to always ask her to be beside me? I dont want to burden her with my constant problems. I dont want to trouble her. And when i realized it, she is no longer here. I rarely meet her. She studies in different city. That's why when she comes back, we spend our time in happiness. I dont wanna make her worry at me, so i always pretending i'm okay. i love her so much. . .
Then i am so grateful to know LJ. This is the place when i meet a lot of friends who care about me though we never meet. I always cry and feel so touching when you all give me hugs and support when i am so down. Thank you very much. Thank you *hugs*
minna, i have written a lot of fic for almost a year. I am so happy if my fic can make you smile. It's the only way that can i do to make you happy. Hope you will happy always.
It's so sad that i think i lost a lot of friends that read my fic. I know it would happen because we have our own problem and RL that sometimes are so hard. I hope you all be healthy and fine, ne *hugs*
honestly i am sad when i see much readers left me. They're still there but i think they don't like my fic again. I can't do anything about it. We all have the right to do anything that we like, ne. And i am so sorry minna that i feel down for writing. My latest update of hidden love is the hardest chap for me to write couz i wrote it in tears. .
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Date: 2011-04-01 12:25 am (UTC)she may be feeling the same way since she is away
as far as your fics go, they are great, dont get bummed, sometimes peoples intrest change, or they dont have the time to apprieciate a story so they wont read
hope you feel better soon ***hugs***
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Date: 2011-04-01 04:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-01 05:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-01 07:19 am (UTC)*hugsssssss*
Ganbatte with the fics, work & also live!!! ^^
Zutto anata no sobani iru kara...
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Date: 2011-04-01 08:50 am (UTC)About fics, I'm really sorry I don't read them, because that's just me who can't perceive all the guy x guy pairings, so it's hard for me to read stuff like that. Sorry :(
Hope you'll overcome these sad things soon *hugs* <3
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Date: 2011-04-01 08:56 am (UTC)*** Cheer up ne~~~~
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Date: 2011-04-01 12:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-01 02:40 pm (UTC)even if alot of them has gotten silent with you, we will always be here for you!!!
you can count on that!!!!
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Date: 2011-04-01 04:07 pm (UTC)He gives and He believes, you will past all of that and you will be stronger
When you thinks it's became too much, actually all you need is TIME
Everyone has their own life, and we couldn't made someone stay in place with us forever.
Sometimes i feel, all of my friends leave me one by one in times. Am I the only one who didn't move?
Try to find or made a new friends ~^^~ open up yourself
Remember when you sad or feels down, there are someone who will always pray for your heathy and happiness.
Hope you will find yourself and be happy
>> I love your writing ^^ don't be so upset about it.