`☆、。・:*:・°`★ I believe that rainbow is the color of our hearts `☆、。・:*:・°`★

I am so sad now.

i cries hard and my heart feels a lot of pain.

my father told me in a harsh tone that he threw away the modem (it's a small equipment like a USB for internet connection). the modem couldn't be installed in my computer so it was so hard to try on. the tecnician gave up to instal it. and my father went angry and stressed to deal with that. that's why he threw the modem away without talk to me first. i did ask him why he did that. eventhoug the modem isn't funtional in my computer, maybe in my brother's computer it can. why don't we try first? or at least we can bring it back to the store to complain about the modem condition or ask for our money back.

but my father didn't do it. he just yelled at me that he threw it away. he also blamed me about that. he told me that i am not independent to take a decision. why did i not tell him to try the modem in m brother computer? i couldn't help but go angry too. how can i tell him if he already threw the modem first?

he is so angry and keep lecturing me. his words is hurting me so much. he said i don't net internet. he prefer me going out to the place that have internet connection to our house instead. i can't stand it anymore. that's why i runaway from my home. okay, i only runaway for na while. i'll come back home as soon as i finish writing this.

minna. i wanna tell you my sorry because i can't talk to you freely like i think i can when i got the modem for net. now, i can't online regularly anymore. my job and my study are killing me too. that's why i think i can't update anything in the near time.

gomen ne, because i made all of my fic here to be private only (just me that can see them). i repost al of them in my fic community u_me_u

the community isn't done yet. i can't manage it in my condition now. but if you want to read my fic you can go there. but it is members only. please read what i wrote there before you join,nee.

there is 43 questions that you have to fill to be the member. it's okay if you don't fulfill all of them. just choose which questions do you like to fill in.

i am so sorry minna. please forgive me. and plese give me hugs?
really love you

Minna, can you help me? I need some questions that i will add in the list questions which you will answer if you want to join in my fic community. I want you to share and give a/some questions so that you will be the part of building my fic comm :)
how do you think about that, minna?

Waiting your answer with my super cute puppy eyes XD

~rest well and peace from citra-chan~

Minna, i wanna ask you something. Do u still remember my fics 'The Warm Touch' and 'So Sweet Or So Hot?'
those two fics need a sequel and i am sorry for making you wait for that. So give me your opinin of which i should write first?
Will wait your opinions/vote =)

~peace from citra-chan~

I did decide to f-lock and f-cut of my journal. There are many reason that make me want to cry and all. I am glad my best friend, fu-chan and a-chan helped me to try finding the solution back then. Actually i planned to do that at the end of december last year, but i thought i wanted to give u a chance to show your love, or even care for my works here. But i realized i just get hurt again and again. But thanks to my friends who are always here for me. They give me hugs, give me care, give me support, give me encourage, give me warm love, and want to spend their precious time to say thank you to my works or say what happen/please smile when something happen to me. You know who i am talking about because it's you. So give u hugs attack xD

Then i wonder if it is alright to f-lock and f-cut? I want to know your opinion, minna :)

honestly, i am really tired. And it gives me a strong and bad impact every time i find many annoying things about my fic/my treasure. I am easy to cry. Now, i think it's not a good idea to cry when i almost die bcause of my tiredness.

I already talked about f-cut before but i only got a super little feedback. So i think i'll wait your opinion now. If u don't want to speak here it's okay. I won't force u anything. I just want you to know that i give you a chance to show your love. I am tired to say this to people who keep silence and enjoy others (authors/fans) works without even care to say their respect or love.

Sorry if i am kind of annoy you. I am just so tired. In this situation, i feel down and turn into so pessimistic. Please show your love though it's only a little 'Hi~'. Thank you so much minna. Sorry for messying your f-page >w<

good night and have a nice dream <3

~peace from citra-chan~

My job is killing me TwT So i needed something to distrack me from my frustation >,<
that's why i began watching my fancam vid, of course it relates to my ichiban 'Ryo'.

The vid that i chose to watch is fancam of Tat-chon's solo in eito's concert in 2008. I never watched it coz i thought there's no Ryo there, but i was totally wrong cz Ryo was there! Well, eventhough it's just his record dance performance of TORN. Actually TORN is sung by Tadayoshi Ohkura and Nishikido Ryo. But that time only Tatchon only and Ryo's vid as the background.

OMG!!! I suggest you to watch it coz Ryo was unbelievably HOT, SEXY, INVITING, HORNY AND KYAAAAA *faints with major nosebleed*
he touched his lips too dangerously and sensually. He touched his bare chest, nipple, stomach and going south *warning : it's so HOOOOT*
I didn't blink, breath, move or scream when i watched that. I only shocked, gaped, drooled, nosebleed and then fainted! XD

SO MINNA, U HAVE TO WATCH IT!!!
Ehehe i love him more. Like always he's so hot though sometimes i wanna kick his butt every time i hear bad rumor about him. Well, he's just a complicated guy. But it's okay as long as i can see him smile cutely :)

~peace from Ryo and citra-chan~

Minna, i wanna ask you about which eito's concerts do you like? And why?

I have watched eito's concert from Excite! to concert countdown 2010. And for me the best eito's concert is PUZZLE!!!

Why? It's because the stage is so unique and amazing. It's sooo eito xD
the songs of puzzle album that they sang was so wonderful. I love all the song and they chose their old song very well. I love Eden and heavenly psycho from the bottom of my heart and i always feel the songs sound different in their every concert because their voice are getting better and better. Then i love their costumes. They didn't hurt my eyes bcause of strange or ridiculous design. Surprisingly they looks so elegant and well design in a soft touch. Okay i don't know anything about johnny's fashion at concert but at least i found eito's costumes were definitely good in PUZZLE.

I love how they wore PUZZLE shirt and showed in natural performent for some songs before the concert ended. Hehehe the story of eito ranger here was so funny and hillarious too! I was LOL when i saw Hina drove a mini purple car around the stage while the rest of eito ranger were fighting in the main stage! XD

Then i had spotted a lot of children and old people in the concert! Uehehe our eito is loved by many people in every age even a baby too? XDD
Then i shivered in mysterious aura when i heard they sang PUZZLE. The song is too wonderful and the last lyric that Ryo sang is having a deep meaning about eito. I go teary bcause of that. Oh and the best part is when they sang Roller Coaster! Too bad Ryo didn't wear his black with a tiny yellow shirt that he wore in the concert that not inside the dvd. If he wore it there i am sure i would faint bcause how handsome he was with it!

Overall, PUZZLE DVD is awesome bcause it's their 5 years of eito :)

~peace from eito ranger and citra-chan~

Minna, do you know why Ryo call tat-chan 'hime' in fic?

Oh, i wanna write a short SMUT FULL OF HOTNESS about Ryoda/Akame in a short time too *my job is killing me*
so feel free to give me some HOT prompts XD
i'll wait!
*sit cutely and look at you with my puppy eyes*

I just realized how long i never talk or rambling about Ryo and Eito. I knew this lj world because of them. I love eito and ryo so much <3

i feel bad for myself because i forgot or didn't follow their news since i started writing. My journal is full of my fic and pic. And I just have super little things about eito here, uhuhuhu

recently i began watching their vids again and finally i watched their movie '8UPPERS'! OMG! It's so awesome! Maru is my favorite there bcause he was suprisingly so COOL AND GREAT WITH FIGHTING! Ehehe he's the most funny guy in eito, that's why every time i see him in 'kakkoi' mode i go 'kyaaaa' xD

The story of the movie is so good and the baby is soooo CUTE!!! Seriously, eito + baby = adorable!

But there was something that i don't like. It was bcause Ryo and Baru smoked A LOT! in every setting of the movie i saw them smoking! Okay, they looked so cool when smoking but i think it's not good for them. Ryo looked like he is so used to smoke, so i am so worried at him.

But everything is perfect beside the smoking thing. Oh, and i loved to see how tat-chon was so kind and acted like a good papa to the baby. Kyaaa~ he's so perfect to be a handsome and amazing husband! *hugs him*

oh, and i just saw many new pics of Ryo in eito concert 2010-2011. Uwaaaaa~ Ryo is super duper cute! I love his smile *dies*
eito's costumes in that concert were so lovely and colorful. Ryo looked so adorable especially when he acted like an innocent boy in dance with eito. Kyaaaa not just ryo who was cute there, but the rest of eito too!

Well, i don't watch the latest eito's pv 'animal magic' yet though i had already had the vid. I guess i'll love it bcause i love their movie *the song is for 8UPPERS*

Okay, it's my first ranting about eito. How i hope people will know them for more with my ranting about them, ehehehe

eito ranger and citra-chan 8D

Minna, can u rec fic akame multichapter for me?*puppy eyes*

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minna, i am so sorry i still can't reply your wonderful comment >w<

i still try to have my own internet. so wait me, nee

and forgive me.

i promise i will reply all your comment as soon as i get my own internet.

love you all

*hugs and kisses*